Friday, September 16, 2011

I remember

I remember where I was 7 years ago. I remember it was a Friday. I remember it was an intersession day at school. I remember all of the kids were gone on a field trip. I remember I was at my desk. I remember Mike called me on my cell phone. I remember that it was just after 10:00 am. I remember he said that Jodi was with her. I remember feeling like I knew this was coming. I remember thinking that this can't possibly be true. I remember thinking I could go back on working. I remember realizing that wasn't true.

Sometimes I forget what it is like. Sometimes I forget that she is gone. I hear about someone losing a friend or someone close to them and think 'Oh, that must be so hard.' Then I remember. It is amazing how easy it is to forget that she is gone. It is probably because I remember so much about her. Her laugh was infectious and wonderful. Everyone around her would have to smile when she did. She loved music. Beastie's. Stone's. Beatles. So many... Spring Break. I will never let my kids go on Spring Break. Her hair. She had amazing hair! She loved to read. She didn't understand why people wasted time watching movies, but couldn't understand why I didn't love Beaches. On, and on, and on I remember...

On October 8th I will once again be walking in The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society's Light the Night. This year the Omaha, NE chapter of Light the Night has selected Kara to be the Memorial Honoree of the walk.

Please join with me in donating to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. Cancer is a horrible disease and by making your donation today, you can make a difference. Team Klara is currently taking donations in our battle against blood cancers. To donate you may click here, call me (515-822-2660), email me (, or send money to my home address (3011 School St. Des Moines, IA 50311). Also, you may join our team!!! It is never to late to come join me in remembering all of the great times. T-shirts are available for $17.00. Just let me know if you are interested and I can get one ordered for you. Kara's biggest fear was that she would be forgotten. It amazes me that she would fear being forgotten. I might forget that she is gone, but really, I am just remembering when she was here.

Kara Marie Luett ~ February 13, 1978 - September 17, 2004

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Big Day

Harrison has been avoiding learning how to ride his bike for 2 years. I am not a fan of training wheels so he has never had any. He got a scooter for his birthday last year from my godparents, Fuzzy and Jean and he has learned a lot about balance this summer. He loves his scooter. Chris and I nudge him towards his bike a lot, but just the last couple weeks we have really been pushing it. Yesterday he took off all on his own and he is working at it just like he did with his scooter. He can ride up and down the drive-way, but has to stop to turn around and still has some trouble with the breaks. But he can ride!!!! All by himself! I am so excited for him and by the look on his face, I think he is pretty excited as well!

Very proud.

Away he goes...

It happened again

It happened again. The kids got older. I want to live in my naive world where my boys never grow up to be the teenagers we witnessed swearing and standing on tables outside of McDonald's on a Friday night when they were supposed to be at the football game... I digress...

Preschool started!!!!!

Bennett started in the 4 year old room. In a new location. With new teachers. School started Tuesday. Monday morning Bennett decided he was not going to school. There was no reason that we could ascertain. No hint of what was bothering him. Great. It was Labor Day. I couldn't go to the library to check out a picture book about conquering fears or the joys of preschool. I looked on line for some advice, but I was doing pretty much everything the 'experts' said. Bennett was adamant that he was going to stay home with Annabelle and take a nap. A NAP!! He hasn't napped for almost a year and even before that it was like pulling teeth the get him to lie down! Basically I just down played it. I didn't belittle his fears or anything, but I didn't feed into it either. I was a little nervous how this staunch attitude on not going to preschool was going to affect Caden and Miles on Tuesday, but neither seemed to bothered by it. Caden looked at him like he was crazy and Miles just didn't pay attention!

We were outside Tuesday morning and I decided it was time for some photo's before the time crunch of getting in the car after lunch. I brought all he back-packs outside and from there, something changed. Bennett didn't mention not going to school. He smiled and was excited. I have NO idea what happened, but I am REALLY glad!!

The 3 amigos

4 year old preschool

3 year old preschool

I wasn't overly worried about his first day because I was going to be there the whole time and Heather and Andy were coming for their kids. I could concentrate on Bennett. But on his second day I would be all by myself with Graysen and Annabelle in tow and Annabelle has convinced herself that she gets to go to preschool too!

See, Graysen and Annabelle are already barging into the picture!! :)

Thank goodness Bennett changed his tune! I can only imagine Annabelle screaming "I TOO" at the top of her lungs, Graysen pulling everything off the shelves and Bennett clinging to my leg crying. After school he told me that he forgot that there would be new toys and I didn't need to stay with him anymore. What a vicious circle!! First I am complaining because he won't go to school then I am almost in tears because he doesn't need me anymore! My baby!!!!

The first day was a wonderful success and the new location is amazing. We are looking forward to day 2. Here is my budding tool man ready to go.

In 10 short years my boys will be 14 and 16, going to Friday night football games and it will so not be cool for their mom to tag along. Excuse me while I go hug Bennett and then jump in the van to drive down to the school to yank Harrison out of the 1st grade!!